My Little Peanut

A friend suggested I devote a post to Emily since she causes me so much stress and worry and I need to vent so this post is devoted to my Emily.

Well it's no surprise that we call Emily our little peanut. She is such a tiny little girl. She's been slow to gain weight for some time now. Actually this has been going on a year now. I've had my moments where I wonder, "Am I failing her as a parent?" "Will she ever reach 20lbs?" the list of my unanswered questions go on and on. The doctor's have found nothing medically wrong with her other than an egg allergy and I thank God for that every day! Is it just genetics? Did she just inherit the "short gene?" Maybe that is the case but who knows!

I have a meeting next week with a registered dietician and I guess I should say that I am looking forward to it but I'm not. I'll be honest, I'm scared. I'm scared of what they may tell me. I don't want to hear that I have been doing everything wrong! Then again, maybe a fresh set of eyes will help me because I am tired of feeling frustated everytime we sit down to eat. I know every kid is different but it's hard when one is so different from the other and I am getting no explanation for why she doesn't want to eat. I know she is strong willed and stubborn so maybe that plays into her not eating well. People keep telling me she will eat when she is hungry but that doesn't make me feel any better. Since she is so little I know she needs to eat and her missing a meal doesn't feel like a good option to me. Hopefully the Dietician can help us out and ease my mind a bit. Till next week!